Mainly I love its rawness and realness, and by "realness" I mean not authenticity but something more specific: A "real" or living art being one more closely attuned to the urgency of what it feels compelled to say than it is invested in its own status as an art object. Some people hate this “alt-rap.” Sometimes I hate it, and most things.
These are wobbly and amorphous but expanding categories. He belonged loosely to an offshoot, a moon, of what people call underground hip-hop, a sub-genre sometimes referred to as SoundCloud rap or sad rap. Not personally, but I knew and loved his music and had kept up with his evolving persona during the previous year and a half. Whereas to actually be so, that would be.human life! Look at us all running around pretending like death isn't soon and forever! "We play at games until death calls us home," said poet and collagist Kurt Schwitters, a pioneer in the field of "art from rubbish." Notice that as always the crime, the great shame, is the social one, to seem pretentious. Generally, though, in these times we live in, when the thing you're doing is sort of too obviously romantically cinematic or could be viewed in that light, you know enough to play it down, to undersell it preemptively as ersatz and banal, in order to not strike others as a pretentious shithead. Don't misunderstand me it's not like this kind of scene-sitting up late in the oldest part of a great capital, smoking hash, and contemplating the death of the young-is "what I do." On the other hand, I guess it's not not what I do. Seems like a dream, but life will do that if you live enough, and long enough. No, now that I think of it, I was in Paris in the atelier smoking the hash, in the wee hours even.
I'm messing around, of course! I wish.I was back home in North Carolina, reading to my daughters, glancing over to see if they'd fallen asleep.
I was sitting up late by myself in a tiny atelier in Paris staring out the window at the silent courtyard and smoking grams of some truly top-shelf Moroccan hash when I learned that Lil Peep was dead.
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